Okay it’s way too easy to forget how Christianity’s the exception rather than the rule. Then again, my week comprises of one day of penitence and holiness (Sunday) and then six days of worldliness, materialism, sex, vice… God isn’t even getting a fair trial here.
Sometimes I wish that I weren’t a Christian (I think most of you who balk at that with condescension are lying to yourself)- being a Christian is all about QUALMS (lol using a word that has cropped up in conversations more than ever in the past few weeks). It’s not even about being incapacitated to do something, but rather discouraged from doing so when all the resources you require are ostensibly at your disposal. It’s like giving you the remote and expressly forbidding you to turn on the TV, amongst other throwaway analogies; the restriction is made all the more painful.
Sometimes I also wish that God removed free will from us, because liberty’s the only thing that we can possibly muck up.
And I’m not saying that I’m remotely holy or even spiritually aware all the time (and also at the risk of giving off the impression of hypocrisy) but I just wish that I was surrounded by people who made an effort to be so, it’ll just make the struggle (between pleasure and holiness) so much less for me. I wish that as a rule, everyone attempted to date for marriage, respect each other’s physical boundaries, regard everyone without discrimination or jibes, etc etc. If nothing else, let them do so because they fear God and they fear the consequences of disobedience. For this childish, almost irrational, fear is really what we have left.